What is it about dads that leave thinking smacks are a good tool? Mine would call it "showing the love" and whenever he thought i was a nuisance he thought it was cute to hit me until i hit him back while he was driving and couldn't understand it.

But as for what we do for work and what we do with our lives do not blame solely on yourself as this world is not tame or easy. Failing is the default state but you still always have the ability as a human to adjust your environment. Even if just a little. Its ok to not change the whole world cause your changes do change the world around you.