My blackest blackpill moment in my adult life was the realization that we ALL hold a strange little belief somewhere in the back of our minds that someone, somewhere is serious enough that they will step in if our life or the whole world starts to go off the rails.

We hold this belief, this feeling about more than politics, we think this way about our whole lives. We always carry an unconscious sensation of sorts that there's some safety net that will catch us if we screw up too badly. That if the world gets too chaotic the "army" or someone is going to deploy and restore order.

Then there's the people who have projected this feeling into superstition and conspiracy and believe aliens are watching us, or that lizard people are actually in control, that there's some shadowy cabal of people with all the real power who are pulling all the strings and everything is going according to their plan even if it doesn't look like it. It's funny how that sounds exactly like religion if you change the characters around.

But truly, finally, realistically internalizing that there is nobody coming, that you are utterly alone, even if you have people close to you, that NOBODY is going to help you in the worst case, that NOBODY is going to lock the country down and restore order, that NOBODY will give you fair hearing and let you plead your special case if your life falls down too far, that God isn't there, there are no angels or demons, there is no cabal. Everyone is dumb. Everyone is insecure and looking at each other for acceptance and cues what to do. We're all children.... this is a painful thing to accept and understand but it's massively liberating. It's like jumping out of an airplane without a parachute and there's no ground. It's weightless falling through the cosmos.

But it's your fall. Yours alone.