I respect pragmatism but I just don't have it in me anymore. Part of me is now fueled by a burning spite towards these people so intense I want to go down with the ship. Contributing to a leftist victory now means I validate these accelerationist's desires to drag electoralists into extreme danger for their stupid delusion of a grand revolution or whatever the fuck. One that in the end is likely doomed anyway because we are up against a government that could turn us all into a bloody mist cloud instantly with its military.

Another other part of me wants to forgive them so I no longer feel hatred for most of my fellow Americans. I miss not being a misanthrope. I miss not being surrounded by evil people.

And of course and third part of me is blackpilled since climate change is going to get worse because of Trump and make it kind of not matter anyway.

IDK man. I'm tired.