Does anyone else feel like binding just makes you more dysphoric? Binding makes me more conscious of my chest, which generates more of the bad thoughts... am I approaching binding wrong?

its my first day on lemmy, this is a truly enby moment

23 year old AMAB. All my life, I've considered myself cisgender, but recently, I've begun questioning that. I'll sometimes see posts like "if a potion/pill/button existed that could turn you into the opposite sex, would you use it?" and think to myself "Yeah, I'd be down to at least try that." I know that doesn't automatically make me trans, but it does make me question.

At the same time, however, I get a lot of euphoria from presenting as a man. When I start questioning my gender, I'll look in the mirror, or at pictures of myself, and think "I look good with this masculine hairstyle", "I like getting dressed up in a suit and tie", or "I want to try growing a beard". And the idea of being a father someday does bring me a lot of joy.

I've done a bit of research already, and based on my experience, I think I've narrowed my possible identities down to two options.

• Cisgender male who is just curious about the female experience
• Demiboy with a secondary identity of female

The thing is that I'm not sure where to go from here. This isn't exactly a problem, since I feel no dysphoria when presenting as a male, so am comfortable living as cis in the meantime. But I would like to figure this out at some point, ideally sooner than later. Do any of you have any suggestions?

Side note: I'm currently living with my parents, and while they're generally nice people, they hold some pretty transphobic views. I do expect to move out sooner than later, but anything that would require a totally safe physical space might have to wait.

It seems to me that anything short of high fem (which isn't really my thing) is interpreted as "man" on me since I'm amab. Does anybody have some suggestions of hairstyles, clothes, accessories, etc that hit that sweet spot in between? I really want to give off queer tomboy energy, but the mirror is disappointing. :/

Title. I go about my day-to-day life as a man still even though I don't entirely feel that way. But then again, how do I feel? It's weird, I really strongly identify with the nb flag; it makes me super happy when I look at it. I want to be like other enbies but it's hard to do so because I feel so stuck in the way I present myself now. I would feel super stupid making a change to myself, you know?

Anyways, I guess I just wanted to use the opportunity of this new site by asking you all for advice. Have you been in this situation before? What should I do? Thanks, love you all. <3

koi

We love representation in this house! Can't truthfully say I've watched all of these series in full, but I still love my little non-binary critters to death, they make me so happy :)

I gutted an old CRTV, replaced the screen with tinted 1-way glass, filled it with foam and a hard hat to be comfy, and spray-painted tf out of it

but maybe the real treasure was the gender we met along the way