Had my IQ tested a while back and it turns out my IQ is 139. I did ok in school and that's about it.

I'm 50/50. On one hand it's interesting and good to know about yourself and your issues but it is a double-ended sword. I was diagnosed with ASPD a little while back among other things and while I'm glad I understand the root for a lot of my problematic traits I now also have a piece of paper that makes me look bad if I have to go to court.

Do you need to trust anyone else?

Doesn't sound that different to my life.

What does the drifter lifestyle consist of?

It took me all these hours but I finally get the joke. Bruh.

A common example is Patrick Bateman from 'American Psycho'. From what I've seen Bateman is obsessed with how he's seen by others and is prone to having power fantasies. He seems more NPD to me. I don't really care how I look anymore then any other woman does.

Not really. Having a mental illness doesn't make you a professional on that mental illness anymore then breaking a leg would make you a professional on broken bones.

That we're all serial killers. ASPD isn't going to make you a serial killer more than anyone other personality disorder. Also, that we're all abusers and can't be trusted.

Honestly there isn't that many accurate stereotypes about people with ASPD. It's been so demonised in the media and pop psychology. The Idea people get of ASPD usually comes from sensationalist movies or TV shows.

No, I haven't. It's far too stigmatized to just casually admit something like that. Maybe if they were really close to me.

It was recommended by a counsellor from my old school. Plus, I thought it would be interesting to learn about myself.

A vague concept is the best way to put it. I can understand the concepts on a intellectual level but I just don't feel them. Like, I can understand regretting something because it hurt someone else but I don't know how you can feel someone else's pain. It's the same for guilt. ASPD gives you an extremely short time preference. If I make a bad decision once I'm done dealing with the consequences I don't really think about it. The future is in the future so why really care and the past is the past. It's for this reason I don't feel anything for the people involved.

I understand this isn't a good way of thinking about things. I understand I need to improve myself to stop these toxic patterns of thinking. I now make that I not only learn from my mistakes but put what I learnt into practice.

I may not feel empathy or guilt like a normal person but I can learn my short commings and work on them and at the end of the day that's what being a good person is all about.