[-] JustaStatistic@sh.itjust.works 1 points 2 weeks ago

Yh I guess this is some good advice, although mainly for me i guess it is good coz I can get all the work done there only and not worry about it at back wherever I live. That is how I am thinking anyway.

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So long story short, I essentially spend the last 1.5 years rotting at home in bed oscillating from mild to heavy depression, though abt 7months of them was intense studies before I burned out. But anyway I went to a college today, a decent one not amazing, just whatever I got, just to get a look. It starts next week. And to find places to live in a different city (though its only about 100kms apart from my home).

And yeah I am kinda scared now idk. I do not really have any meaningful friends or something or a mentor to ask advice, so well I would like to hear your stories! Or any tips? I am kinda introverted, well not kinda quite a bit. But I wont say I am under-confident, I do not have trouble talking to people or something, mostly I just find hard to relate with them. Even today I tried striking some casual convos but seniors have some attitude towards freshers i guess, and freshers were too busy completing their docs maybe.

[-] JustaStatistic@sh.itjust.works 3 points 3 weeks ago* (last edited 3 weeks ago)

Tbh here in india as well we all feel the same way. We have been fucked since all the way back in 2014 and even before that tbh but lets not get into that. And idk about the US but a lot of people here do not protest because most people literally work on daily wages and are shit scared of police brutality and losing their jobs. A single FIR can ruin your life even if it is a fake one. And the “government”(regime) is very good at dishing out polarizing narratives with its humongous IT cell that constantly shifts blame to minorities such as muslims, christians and lower caste Hindus, and immigrants from neighboring states.

The recent protest were a result a lot of things going right. As paper leaks are a pan India issue and effected everyone from lower to upper caste and of every religion. The amount of frustration simply outpaced any government narratives. As well as a very well organized movement by educated people and a very high profile engineer taking part in the protest. It is still a very hopeful thing overall. But thousands still die from basic issues like contaminated ground water, toxic air, a power grid incapable of handling modern 45C + summers (ACs are still a luxury here the average person and classroom does not have). Endless concrete hell where you can just die by a brick falling on you from a construction site in the middle of a busy road. Bridges just randomly collapsing and what not. And there are zero protests anywhere. Even if there are, all the media is owned by the government and you do not see it enough for it to get large enough.

Even rn they r actively arresting students from protests for no reasons at all and used violence against them back in July 20 to again just sow enough fear where people simply accept being miserable than dealing with the state.

As long as people believe risking their current way of life is not a good trade off there simply can not be a mass protest movement. The paper leak issue worked coz it already has about 1% of chance of you making it and if even that is bought by money, students have literally nothing as there are no mid level industrial jobs here. You are either working an office MNC/Doctoral job or are working in a field under disguised unemployment or washing dishes. Hence we got so many people out.

[-] JustaStatistic@sh.itjust.works 1 points 3 weeks ago

Last night at 3 am I walked into the kitchen to get something to eat and was mumbling to myself “fight to your death, white blood cells. This is a revolution” haha. Unfortunately it just turned into anger when I still could not sleep after that😂

[-] JustaStatistic@sh.itjust.works 2 points 3 weeks ago

36hours? Thats amazing😅. I have a insomnia-tendencies so if I sleep that much there is a chance I just mess up my sleep for two weeks. But that would feel amazing lol sleeping on thursday night and waking up on saturday morning or smthng

[-] JustaStatistic@sh.itjust.works 2 points 3 weeks ago

Haha yeah. I got zero sleep last night coz of constant runny nose sneezes and tears and eventually gave in and dragged myself to get sm meds. I then slept in the afternoon for about 4-5 hrs

[-] JustaStatistic@sh.itjust.works 3 points 3 weeks ago

Thanks a lot! Honestly I have more issues with the constant tearing up and extremely watery runny nose than fever. I end up taking antihistamine when my eyes are always just blurry

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submitted 3 weeks ago* (last edited 3 weeks ago) by JustaStatistic@sh.itjust.works to c/casualconversation@piefed.social

Title basically. I love how this disease is just bad enough to make you miserable. But not enough to get you any sympathy points. So you are just stuck rotting in bed while having people around you judge you🫡.

[-] JustaStatistic@sh.itjust.works 2 points 3 weeks ago

I really love those songs as well. Tbh all the first three albums are amazing. My favorite track though I guess would be August, A certain person, moonlight. Btw have you ever happen to stumble on Rachie (a youtube who makes covers) and her covers of your fav songs? They are amazing in my opinion and are adapted to english so well, the lyrics. Her spring thief cover is amazing

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So I am by no means a music nerd. But I have always loved anime rock bands. This year I will be going to college and I think I can finally convince my parents to lend me enough money to buy an electric guitar.. which I have tried saving up for but I am too broke🤷 and part time jobs are not a thing here. I have saved up enough to get an acoustic but I want electric.

My parents are conservative (who hate Rock) and certainly wont take my request gladly, but oh well I will try. If not then in a year I will have enough to buy an entry level squier and learn some riffs without needing my parents permission.

So anyway this post is a lot of rambling. Well to tell the truth I recovered from a bad depressive episode so it has been turbulent past few days and yesterday I got a cold so now I am pissed off. And I have been listening to the “Thats Why I Gave Up on Music” album by Yorushika. I even created my own playlist on youtube of the whole album subtitled lol. It is a wonderful album.

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