You seem to not identify strongly with "man" or "woman" which seems pretty nonbinary to me imo. If you feel that nonbinary is a good description of your gender, use it. Your gender does not need to be earned or proven.

You might want to look into Agender. It is much of what I feel about my gender most of the time. I view the F on gender markers for my self to be a "fuck it sure", rather than the definitive gender of my self.

That sounds like agender to me, friend

@SonofaBixcuit you can call yourself cis or nonbinary or both or neither

they are all labels, no more or less

@SonofaBixcuit these doubts are common, a way that external transphobia "gets into your head" 😣

How do you feel about other people whose identities are nuanced and outside the male/female binary? Are you treating yourself with anything like the grace you would extend to a friend or stranger?

Love and strength.

idk, this sounds pretty outside the binary to me.

re: the pants paragraph: are you aware of genital nullification surgery?

Nobody is really anything except the matter and energy that make them up. Labels are tools humans use to try to categorize things and make meaning when there is none.

Given that you aren't particularly drawn to most gendered terms, specifically ones that aren't gender-neutral enough, consider exploring the label "agender" for yourself. You could try it on and see what fits.

Sometimes a more blanket term like "queer" feels better to people.

A note that we can't wrap our entire being into a single word; there's too much of it to fit, and we're bound to over-pour the container. It can be more helpful to consider them as tags or attributes, not containers.