not diagnosing, but do you by any chance have bpd or rejection sensitive dysphoria?

You’re aware of the problem, so that’s a step in the right direction. Imagine what it’s like for those people who just find themselves in trouble all the time, but have no idea what’s going on.

I feel you. I have a lot of problems with my mental health as well. I hate the person I am. It's like why can't I just be normal? I have two major personality disorders as well as ADHD and dyslexia.

I hate how fucking stupid I am. I am an actual mentally removed woman with literally no future. I have no qualifications so the only jobs I can get are shitty mcjobs for teens. It brings me so much shame. I deserve to be intelligent and have more possibilities. I see other people who are rich and famous and it makes me so mad because I don't understand why they get all the luck and I don't. I put in so much effort and all I get is some crap job at Burger King and a even crappier car.

I feel the same way. This isn't normal?

I know you said you don’t want advice. I’m sorry for what you’re going through. The mental health things of course won’t solve themselves. Don’t let yourself suffer, take some space and self care immediately as these feelings start to get big, by now you know your early warning signs. Thats not meant to be advice, it came out that way, sorry about that. It’s a strategy I use to help people with moods that fluctuate rapidly. I hope you have warm calm feelings going forward. These things aren’t your fault.