I'm half kidding too, I actually do exactly what you say. I had some trouble with this in the past when I started getting into nihilism, solipsism, egoism, moral relativism, etc., and it's all quite a bother to see yourself as a meaningless speck dust riddled by biological problems.

nowadays yeah, less philosophy, more meditation, more looing at all the nice things, experiencing, living, being. Gotta be grateful our brains suck at keeping too much information active at the same time. You can just play a game, talk to people and eat something delicious & forget the existential dread you felt a couple hours ago.