I don't know you but I know what you're feeling right now. I lost my Orange Boy just a few weeks ago and even this weekend I still felt it. I wish I could share more comfort with you, fellow person. I can share this quote by Kate Braestrup that comforts me in times of loss:

Grief is just love squaring up to its oldest mortal enemy. After all these mortal human years, love is up to the challenge..

As bad as that feeling is right now, it means V mattered and was loved.