i have known i was trans since a bit after starting to notice the effects of puberty (for over 3 years i (dont) think, i am definitely misremembering something, the timeline is not adding up by several years unless i just did not notice the effects of puberty for several years)
i still have to wait for over 2 years before safely transitioning

its been torturous and i still have so long left
i cannot imagine how people who have to put off transitioning for decades manage to survive