When I have asked I get the, "Yeah dude, totally, I'll be there for you, you just say the word, you say the time."

So I say the word and I say the time and they're like, "Oh man, that's real bad. I've got this thing, and there's like this thing that's going on, and like, it's just not a good time for me."

So I say, "Okay, so how about this time instead?"

And it's like, "Oh man, oh no, I feel like such an ass, but that time doesn't work for me either!"

Then I go into problem-solving mode, "Well okay, so why don't you pick a time, and I'll work around your schedule? "

And they're like, "I don't know man, I'm just being here for you. You tell me when."

And so I pick a third time and they're like, "Ah geez, ah, oh no, oh man."

And you can tell me that I've got bad friends, and you can tell me that I have done a poor job in accumulating friendships and people who are there for me and who love me, and you can blame me for the fact that I cannot get help all you want to.

That's not going to keep the bullet out of my fucking head.

"Ah geez, ah, oh no, oh man"