Yeah some times I get in a kind of way and my friends will be super kind and supportive to me. It helps for a bit but then I go right back to it. Perpetuates the guilt of why I don't think I'm a good person to them because I always end up back to the bad place, which feels like a burden to others.

I'm super anxious about it, but for the first time in my life I'm trying out an SSRI. So we'll see.