It is rational to feel that, you are grieving for the future denied to you and everyone else.

Our language around grief is distorted into toxic positivity except when we talk about losing loved ones, it is ok and natural right now to feel horrible, your job is to grieve well and to give those emotions space.

People are so quick to say don't focus on the past, you can't change it, but fascism rises when a society no longer can earnestly look to the past and must blindly and numbly charge on to block it out.

It is going to get worse but we can still make it a better worse so long as we hold space for the parts of us that have been irrevocably crushed. To do that we must grieve, not adopt an unfallibly positive perspective.