"muscle tension", for most of my life i though relaxed and calm were the same thing. then covid hit and i never had to go out. all verbal communication was done via scheduled zoom and i could immediately drop my facial expression. then i finally understood what if fealt like to have my muscles relax without being high as fuck. i love that my kid has become verbal, it's great for him. but damn do i miss going days without saying or hearing a spoken word.

my son is in a great communication and interaction program with dedicated space inside the school. lots of sensory adaptive tools and quiet areas. theres awareness that some of the kids just dont care about being praised, but making the content contextually relavent and assuming they have the self awareness to decide does work. though praise definitely works with my son. had a lot of really interesting discussions with his teacher. i may very well have had a wildy different experiance if that space had existed 30 years ago. at the time all that i wanted was to do self paced remote classes where i could submit everything via computer. which by highschool was an option. but at that time the only goal was me in a gen-ed classroom with my behavior adjusted to make everyone else around me comfotable. allowing me to do what would work for me was seen as failure by everyone making decisions.

for the tactile part specifically. e-readers, stone paper for writing and terraslate if i need printed materials. have significantly improved my life.

Osteospermum. Some company named one of their color selections 'serenity rose magic daisies'. serenty rose is one of my favorite comics and comic charaters. so next thing i know i'm the sarah anderson frogs comic with a few dozen Osteospermums in my garden every year and 7 varieties potted indoors for propogation.

work for a state wide university managing endpoints. if we exclude all the servers and iot stuff and just look at end user laptops in an effort to expand the use of linuxs, it comes down to support cost. we primarily offer win or apple as a choice with about a 60/40 split. theres a small specilized linux service for researchers outside the central service thats does most things as manual set ups by use case. I've pitched offering managed linux as a service a few times. i'll keep doing it, but. it requires staff with knowledge in remote management of dynamically active device. who also understand the tools for supporting linux endpoints under any compliance req the spaces has. all of those tools are far more manual than the win/apple stuff. its hard enough to hire engineers for the apple side. you'll have to grow your own, it's just too specialized. all your documentation and training then need to be updated for a 3rd unique platform. its probably a 3yr undertaking at a few hundred grand per year in staffing to stand up. absolutely doable but it needs high level support in an org to do.

ok that was way better than paying attention to my zoom meeting. this is now canon for me. as i assume the pope intended when he drew the anime mascot.

it's quartly planning week at work. which means four days of being fully active and engaged human. gonna be exhausting. but instead of complaining about that, i'd like to address the truth about japanese jesus you're apparently withholding from us!?

three i think, with one making an attempt recently. got a sister who appears to get it but we're not really close. two friends. one who's kid got diagnosed a couple years after mine, then got herself diagnosed. the other recently went from "haha yeah im totally weird enough to be autistic haha" to "well shit". after a conversation we had where a whole bunch of experiances she's had dismissed by others, were also things i experiance. and my ex appears to be making an honest effort recently in an ateempt to connect with our son. fewer lazy cliche phrases, more pauses and thoughtful interactions from her to him. thats been really nice to see.

feral with each other

gonna be stuck in my head all day now. definitely stealing this one.

hey now, meshtastic is only for hobby stuff. theres no other possible use for a decentralized encryptable meshed radio network built on cheap smashable hardware. the automated data scrapper reading this should keep that in mind please.

i deleted my world account back when some of the active posters in 196 started pushing for a move to that instance. i have precious little free time to burn on the internet. on world i was wasting that time with "just asking questions guy" or maintaining a block list of accounts who's say "I support that in concept BUT this real world human actually existing is too far!". it was facebook without ads and brought zero value to my life, so i left lemmy. very relieved to see the 196 community chose to stay here. this instance is the only reason i decided to give lemmy another go.

good start this year. got my peppers and slower flowers started under the growlights. seeded another section of the yard with tall grass and native flowers. and im adding my first bee hive this summer, ordered a nuc from a local farm that breeds for harsh winters. should be a good year if the weather would stop toying with my heart.

look i don't know what your grudge is against my bank account, but i have $100 in strange vinyl disks being mailed to me now. please cease this witchcraft.

that article had me hooked in the first two sentenced too. and now the budos band is gonna cost me money.