Subject-ive

Every day is some variation on shitty.

Eh. I have thing going on that I'm looking forward to, trying to keep my head up with things, but right now there's this issue that's putting a shadow over everything.

I try to talk to the person involved, but they've kept at it to this point where I don't want to be around them. I've tried to be gentle about it, but it's like everything I said gets forgotten in a week and I'm the bad person for putting my foot down after.

I think it feels worse because I know what I need to do, but it's going to make a lot of things very difficult, and it's going to take accepting that someone who was very important in my life isn't the person I knew when we reached that point. That neither of us are.

exhausted. physically and mentally. even if i manage to disconnect its never for long enough to recouperate fully

With my nerves.

To quote an indecisive mollusk: "Everything is going just as planned!"

i just want to fucking die die die die die die die die die die die FUCKING DIE ALREADYYYYHSHSUDJEJJSJDKF

Had a pint of blood drawn today. I feel dizzy and heavy and very hot 😭

Hopeless.

Like Peter Frampton