Y, every piece I get of the puzzle better helps understand why I couldn't just be a "good little girl" so to speak. Nothing is written in a language I totally get and I am just trying my best to squiggle my way through life as a whole. One big thing I can say though, is that if you don't understand certain things you can always ask for further clarification. Write everything down that's important, because it could be gone in the blink of an eye. And don't let people take the reigns of your health. Advocate for yourself, and know that you're just one of a billion folks they see so your meet ups are way more important to you than them. Even if they're big old bleeding heart types (which is rare because it's pretty counter the skeptical analytical process necessary to work in the medical field).