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Sometimes not even doing something, just in spite
(lemmy.blahaj.zone)
And somehow getting enough serotonin to get through the next day
Seriously, I get home by like 18:00-19:00 and only have about three hours to myself if I want to have my eight hours of sleep. Thankfully at least my job is a very cozy office job where my workload is very mild.
Yup, I get home between 17:30~18:00 but it's only when I'm already in bed at night when I feel that I can play for a little bit or mindlessly read social media without feeling guilty about not doing anything productive.
Sure, I can play or watch tv sometimes in the afternoon if I don't have any urgent chores to do but there's this constant inner voice that doesn't let me enjoy it.
I still feel guilty because I have ambitions, but really I'm struggling with just surviving it really is hard to do well these days...