Hi, my Dr. just started me on 10mg of Vyvanse, but I couldn't even feel it, so I tried taking 20mg yesterday morning, and I really felt that it made me more focused, slowed my mind down from racing thoughts, and made me more motivated. But I'm going back to 10mg today and talking to my Dr. about moving me up to 20mg on Thursday. What do you all think about Vyvanse?
My Dr. first started me on 15mg of Adderall XR, and I could not handle that. It came on too strong, lasted too long, made me clench my jaw all day, and made me jittery and nervous. Also, my Dr. has me on 0.5mg of Klonopin twice a day, but it's not really doing anything either. Back about 3 years ago, when I lived in another state, my psych Dr. had me on 2mg of Klonopin three times a day, and that did help.
But besides my ADHD, my real problem is anxiety and agoraphobia. I told my Dr. that sometimes I would take one of my mother's 2mg Xanax if I ever had to do anything in public or had an anxious situation. I told her I took one on our first appointment and that I was so nervous I almost cancelled our appointment 10 times leading up to it.
I also just sent my Dr. an email asking her if I could increase the Vyvanse to 20mg and the Klonopin to 1mg, but I have not heard back yet. I see her again Thursday, so maybe I shouldn't have sent her an email. I hate that I might be coming off weird, like I'm wanting more drugs, but that ain't it. I honestly can't even feel I've taken the dose.
But what do you all think about this, and what do you think about Vyvanse? BTW, this is the first time I've used Lemmy, first post ever on Lemmy, too, so please be easy on me lol. Thanks!
wow so vyvanse helped your anxiety. stimulants usually make me alittle jittery or nervous
I think more than directly chemical, a lot of my depression and anxiety symptoms were due to not knowing what to do about constantly feeling a little physiologically bad at all times.
My ADHD gives me this like, in the same way sadness can hurt physically, physical sense of not being stimulated enough. But I don't really find like stimming helps it so I used to just kinda feel, as I would describe it, that every passing second was like a grinding stone(from like a mill) was turning right between my eyes and on my center forehead. Not painful as that would be, but just a negative and constant awareness of time passing.
So between RSD, emotional dysregulation and whatever that sympyom would be called, I think I was basically just using anxiety/sadness as a more pleasant place to be than that and an explanation for why I felt bad and eventually it became habit/engrained.
Between cognitive behavioral therapy and then the meds, I think I just stabilized enough to realize I was kinda helping rather than fighting the depression/anxiety.
I still have depressed periods of a few days to a few weeks, but they're mild and I notice as I am going through them and when I am out.
And I still catch myself thinking anxious thoughts or worrying about how I am perceived or misunderstandings, but it's possible, even easy often, for me to simply realize I'm having more anxiety that day, and write it all off/stop focusing on it.