Ngl, the bit about making decisions for myself is a part of anarchism I really struggle with. But that is precisely why I'm an anarchist — I understand that I struggle with this because I have been systemically deprived of the opportunity to develop my capacity to make decisions for myself, and I see the continuous practice of anarchism as something that can help me to improve that (as well as supporting others to do the same).

Freedom is haaaaaaaaard. It's probably worth it though. I'll let you know when I'm free.