[USA]

I was in highschool in 2020, just a mere week before school got cancelled, this dipshit started a fight against me and I excercised self-defence, and school admin sided against me, so I got arrested and held in the police station for a few hours. (Edit: I was 17 btw, still a minor, wtf)

Now, for context, I'm ethnic Chinese, anti-Asian hate is already starting to become a thing, and that was likely one of the reasons why I got targeted.

And like literally a week later, school was cancelled.

God damn why didn't they cancel it a week earlier, that fight could've been avoided.

They posted asynchonous assignments on Google Classroom, but school was already in the process of trying to get me expelled for my act of self-defence, so I didn't bother. I literally learn more just reading an encyclopedia and whatever bullshit propaganda they teach.

Charges got dismissed, and they ended up not expelling me, but still, I didn't really bother with doing the Google Classroom stuff, I was already depressed after the injustice that I faced. Its now via Google Meet, I hated to be on camera anyways, weird af, so I didn't do it. Which means I failed the 2020-2021 year, which I had to do again. My mom made me go to finish it. I wanted to just do GED and get it done with, but my mother said no, so I did, but eventually I got so depressed I stopped going. So I just did GED instead, passed all of the subjects without studying, scores are much higher than average. So I'm not stupid, I just hate school, tyrannical administrators and teachers with their tyrannical rules, literally detention for missing a tie, or wearing a hoodie when its cold-af and the heating is partially broken.

Got accepted to college, then ended up withdrawing. Because, guesswhat, my mother totaly ignored my depression and thought I can just use my willpower and persevere through university, what the fuck. I lose control of my emotions, just reading some news articles made me cry about the injustices of the world, about the time my older brother abused me, all the times I've faced bullying and discrimination, my birth country government's rejection of me, and the tyrannical school administrators and the gestapo police illegal arrests.

I kinds overdosed on antidepressants. I wanted to be happy (it didn't work of course, that's not how medications work, but I was desparate, okay). I did that a few times actually. Like I always take more than prescribed and end up running out of it before its supposed to get refilled.

Anyways, now my parents don't trust me with medications. Now I'm not on any medications and the depression-headache is killing me.

I kinda feel tired every day and wanna kms.

This fucking world.... Fuck CCP. My older brother can go to hell. Fucking bullies and racists and xenophobes can get hit by a truck, fuck the far-right, fuck the education system, dipshit school administrators deserved to be tortured, given how much they love to torture students. Fucking brain chemicals ffs making me have a headache. And fuck filial piety, always giving adults excuse to abuse children. And the fucking conservatism, never really taking depression seriously.

How are things going with me? Bruh ICE is raiding Chinatowns, its cooked, bro. Scared to go outside.

(Sorry for the rant)