Yeah, I understand, I was a huge meat lover too. I definitely took some pride in my ability to cook a perfect steak. One day I just said I can't morally justify it, so I'm done, and went... vegetarian.

From that point, I think I did intend to go vegan eventually, but it ended up taking me quite a while because i didn't think cutting everything all at once would've been sustainable for me. I kept going back to r/vegan and reading/getting in debates about ethics and it all pushed me to eventually cut animal products entirely.

There were definitely people who were quite blunt with me along the way who I now appreciate, and wish i could be more like, sometimes, but I'm way too non-confrontational for that.

But one thing I found I asked myself a lot was: "am I really doing my best to live according to the morals I believe in".