It’s definitely made my depression worse, but it’s sort of just another example of the thing that makes me depressed in general (aside from the brain juices): We live in a society that’s built around not caring about people. The people in power have so little regard for humanity that they will subject people to unimaginable horrors and cruelty if it means they can keep making a buck. There are tons of regular people who do care, but they’re kept so occupied by their own problems that they don’t have the will to band together to push past the barriers we need to break to help each other. Between stuff like this and the ticking time bomb of climate change, it feels like we’re running out of time while also getting further and further from having the capacity to fight back. And it’s not like I’m above any of this. I have had trouble trying to get involved in stuff because of all my issues and it feels really bad. Having learned more about organizing lately, I’m now pretty convinced that just voting isn’t going to do anything. We NEED to get out into our communities and make connections with people to get things done. Good thing I don’t have crippling social anxiety and autism on top of the depression… hehe.

I’m watching history repeat itself as little more than a spectator… and this might be the last show.