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Sword Curse Rule (lemmy.world)

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[-] Duke_Nukem_1990@feddit.org 58 points 1 month ago

CW internalised transphobia

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My doubt-filled brain immediately going "See now you can check weather you are really trans or just making it up in your head muahaha"

[-] hovercat 37 points 1 month ago

Behold, the unmatched power of ~~Storm~~Eggbreaker

[-] Duke_Nukem_1990@feddit.org 22 points 1 month ago

Well I have been on hrt for 4 months so the egg is broken well and good. But still...the doubt persists :/)

[-] hovercat 14 points 1 month ago

Congratulations! I'm just past a month, and I absolutely get it. It's especially fun on those days when you're feeling extra dysphoric 🥲

Something that's helped me a lot was realizing that it's just a really lazy coping/defense mechanism from the brain. Being trans is kind of (incredibly) scary, and so it's just those echos of fear and doubt saying "Well, maybe if you just weren't trans, things would be way easier!". Then you can calmly tell that to shut the hell up, and continue living your best life :3

[-] Duke_Nukem_1990@feddit.org 7 points 1 month ago

Thank you, I love collecting coping mechanisms.

For me the question: "Am i cis then?" really helps too, cause I can confidently deny that one haha

[-] Catoblepas 11 points 1 month ago* (last edited 1 month ago)

As someone who is close to living half my life post-transition, I wouldn’t say it ever went away completely for me but I would say it doesn’t bother me anymore. Because like, so what if I’m not ‘really’ trans? I’m clearly and obviously happier now. I think that fear, for me, comes from on some level believing that if I find out I’m not trans that means I’ll have to detransition… a totally cis thing to fear 🤣