Hmm. Many years of thinking "hurr hurr I wish I was a lesbian", and I never thought to ask myself why.
Sure, you get to date girls.
But also...? Come on, past me, you've almost got it...
if one is self-referring as an egg, they’re obviously trans
Not sure I agree with that. An egg, as I understand it, is someone who is still questioning, or hasn't started yet, so it's presumptive to assume that they're trans and in denial. And while being scared or in denial about possibly being trans is technically transphobia, I think it's a bit unfair to lump them in with the foaming-at-the-mouth trans-hating crowd.
OTOH, yes, nobody should be calling you an egg but yourself. Preferably in the past tense <3
Estrogen skin is a lot softer and less rubbery, with a finer "grain" -- my fingerprints have receded so much that my phone's sensor doesn't work any more. The dryness probably doesn't help, either. It makes holding smooth things like glasses pretty difficult. I think that's why jars are so hard to open, too, rather than a strength issue.
Oh hello, are you me?
I've been watching Elena Darlingg recently, and got a bad case of "wow, she's amazing. I'm never going to be as much of a woman as her. I'm not really trans anyway..." etc etc.
Mostly I just recognize this as an unhelpful thought pattern and go do something else for a while (and cuddle Blåhaj). Objectively, I know that these are thoughts that cis women have; it's just imposter syndrome; I should be comparing progress against my past self and so on, but that really doesn't help much when I'm feeling jealous.
Sometimes I do get euphoria though, and while I can't call it up on demand, I do try to remember those times and that I'm doing this to feel good!
Starting HRT made a big difference: I'm in the pipeline now and just sitting around is still working towards my goal. I hope your therapist will get you sorted soon.
<3
Sorry, maybe it was a bit too obscure! It's a meme about feminizing voice training.
First panel is Frieren; she has a fairly deep voice (for anime at least) but obviously feminine. Should be achievable, and I'd be really happy if I could sound anywhere close to that (although maybe a bit less breathy).
Second panel is Makoto from Sempai is an Otokonoko - the scene where he's(*) standing in front of a blackboard after being outed. His voice is quite soft and high, but sounds like a boy (in-universe he can pass) -- which is kind of where I'm at most of the time.
I'm talking about the Japanese voice acting, btw. I assume the dubs use similar voices.
(*) There's apparently some debate over this, but since Makoto rejects wanting to be a girl and explicitly says "I'm a guy", I'm going to assume femboy rather than trans girl.
Had a nice long chat with the wife. Basically explaining the story so far, all those obvious-in-hindsight things. Talked about how I want to start HRT, and what that will entail. She's cool with it becoming a same-sex marriage, and went as far as to say "I know you're not the type to fool around, but if you decide you like men instead, that's OK with me".
Since coming out things have been noticeably friendlier (not in a euphemistic way, just actually talking about stuff in a warmer tone). Which is surprising, but I'll take it!
Things might all turn out OK after all. ☺️
OldEggNewTricks
joined 9 months ago
Yeah, not too happy about that.
Fortunately while there's definitely more of a resemblance now, I can see someone cute in there as well. Especially if I remember not to frown all the time.
Actually, come to think of it, I look way more like my grandmother. Hope I got the boob genes as well.