Okay let me think.. Okay, got it.

I'm imagining the very slim chance that the best case scenario general intelligence AI is born in a 5 to 15 year timeframe which ushers in a new world for humanity - uniting all nations, solving all of our issues and eliminates our need to spend most of our lives forced to work. Also allowing us to choose how long we wish to live for, among other unimaginable benefits to us all.

That's the best I've got.

To spite the people who want me dead, including my own mental disorder demons.

strangely motivational on Thursday afternoon

I can find hundreds reasons that's the problem it is going so fast and I haven't yet learned tenth of the shit I wanted to. I need to grow my ass, I need to grow my boobs, I need to learn playing skyrim soundtrack on guitar, then violin lotr, then drawing fun characters then electronics, robotics maybe. Read about all the history of every country. I often wonder why am I so resistant to stuff when everyone seems doing bad and it is either some innate slight psychopathy (that still allows me to be a good person and everything) or innate stoicism? I am objectively not doing that good in theory, on paper I just embrace small good things and don't care or dwell about the bad much

you say it like i haven't been trying 😅