I don't really think about it, but I hear from people that cocks look weird, so I suppose you should imagine the difference is seeing something weird you like and have the impulse to touch, vs seeing something weird that you don't really care about and don't have the impulse to touch.

In terms of social interactions there is a position of privilege I'm in. I have experienced gay coworkers and acquaintances being mistreated. It's annoying getting along well with someone and they bust out some hot take that shows they are hateful. So I'm not subject to that treatment, and that's what I mean by privilege. I've put stuff in my ass and posted a video on fetlife, so if the conversation topic is bdsm and such I do censor myself depending on the audience.

My wife is great. We just moved into this housing coop and I've been working on little improvements. She's short so I ordered some low cabinets and countertop so she doesn't struggle to cook stuff, and seeing how happy it made her is very satisfying. She's super supportive of my hobbies, has a great sense of humor, and is very loving. I got her into Startrek and she really likes it all.